So much has happened since you went Heaven-bound. We have added two new grandsons to the family. I’ve been working a couple of jobs. We’ve celebrated Thanksgiving and now are getting ready for Christmas.
I still have many moments of despair and disbelief. I try not to dwell on them but it isn’t easy. Sometimes I look in the mirror and although I see the same person as before, I am different. I don’t care to discuss the fact that I’m without you now so when I talk to people I often refer to you as though you were still here.
This Friday is that day that everyone has been speaking of for a couple of years. It will likely pass us by without incident and then it will be Christmas. There you are with the person whose birthday we will be celebrating. I can only imagine with that is like. Of course we don’t know when He was born. Up there, I would not think birthdays matter much. If you did celebrate I guess you wouldn’t wish each other a Merry Christmas. Instead it would be Happy Birthday to Jesus. You must not really pray there because He is right there with you. I supposed He is right here with me as well but you get to see him.
I’ve replaced my wedding ring with a black one. I did not want to remove my other one but felt something needed to change. I will try my best not to let Christmas be sad because you had to go. It will be hard and I don’t look forward to it. It won’t be the same without you.
Well I really did not have much to tell you. I guess I am just missing you as always and wanted to talk to you.